Faith in Necessity

Last week I scheduled my Step Five with my sponsor. The date is circled on my calendar. As it approaches my anxiety is building. Part of me wants to cancel. Part of me wants to say I'm not ready. Part of me wants to wait until I feel more prepared.

We may be filled with anxiety and fear as we approach this task but we have faith that it is necessary for our recovery. This permission to feel afraid while still proceeding is what I needed. I don't have to wait until the fear goes away. I just need faith that the Step is necessary even though I'm scared.

Necessary – not optional. Not something I can skip and still recover fully. My recovery requires this Step. That necessity gives me courage to do it despite the fear. I can be anxious and faithful at the same time.

As my Step Five appointment approaches, I can acknowledge the fear without letting it stop me. The anxiety doesn't mean I'm not ready – it means I'm human. I can have faith that this Step is necessary for my recovery even while my hands shake and my heart races.