Learning to Trust

My early Steps built a foundation: I began to trust my powerlessness in Step One and, with Step Two, felt a flicker of hope that things could be different. Giving over my will in Step Three felt like a leap. But it was in the middle Steps—Six, Seven, Eight, and Nine—where I truly learned to lean on my Higher Power.

These Steps brought a much deeper, more specific kind of trust. I had to trust that naming my character defects wouldn’t make me a terrible person, but that my Higher Power could indeed help remove them. The idea of amends felt terrifying, a messy confrontation I wanted to avoid. Yet, in those Steps, I learned to trust that facing my part, owning my actions, wouldn't shatter me, but actually lead to a sense of peace I desperately craved.

It was a gradual unclenching, trusting that a Power greater than myself had my back, even as I wrestled with difficult truths about myself. This wasn't abstract trust; it was lived, practical experience that showed me my Higher Power was there, guiding me through the messy, vital work of changing.

If I'm struggling to trust my Higher Power with something big, I can look back at the middle Steps. Those times I became willing, asked for help, made amends—each one taught me this Power is trustworthy. The track record is there.