A Clear Conscience

My old life was full of restless, sleepless nights, replaying conversations and fearing the next day's consequences. That chronic guilt was the spiritual debt I paid for avoiding Step Nine. Step Ten provides a beautiful contrast: the opportunity to drift off to sleep with a clear conscience.

This clarity is the result of honesty and willingness. It means I've done my small, daily spiritual work: I've examined the day, admitted my wrongs, and done any immediate, small amends necessary. I have asked for the courage and willingness to keep my slate clean. By entrusting my day, my defects, and my effort to my Higher Power, I trade anxious rumination for restful release. A clear conscience is the program's daily promise of grace.

Tonight, before getting into bed, I will write down three things I am grateful I did and one thing I need to turn over to my Higher Power. I will then mentally close the day before closing my eyes.