Praying for Guidance, Not a Script
We pray for guidance as we approach each task. It helps to call our Sponsor to check out our intentions and to talk about what we have in mind.
Before approaching a difficult amends, my mind runs a thousand scenarios, each one ending in disaster. My old defect of control tries to write a perfect script, and if I can’t get the script right, I postpone the action. This is where I have to step out of my own way and use the spiritual tools. Praying for guidance isn't asking God to give me the exact words to say; it’s asking for the integrity and humility to show up fully.
It's also why calling my Sponsor is so vital. I need an outside perspective to check my motives. Is this amend for the other person, or is it a final attempt to justify myself? I learned that intentions matter more than eloquence. If my intentions are clean, the amend can be simple, awkward, and real, and God will use it. The courage comes not from being ready, but from being willing to follow direction.
When I feel stuck about how to handle a situation today, I will stop formulating solutions alone. I can write down three core intentions—e.g., 'Be honest,' 'Be respectful,' 'Keep it brief'—and then call my Sponsor to review them before I take any action.
