Personal Relationship
It was about my own personal relationship with a Higher Power.
I had God all figured out. Read the books, memorized the verses, knew the theology inside and out. But when my life fell apart, none of that knowledge could hold me. I knew about God the way I knew about France — from a distance, mostly from pictures.
Step Three wasn't asking me to understand God better. It was asking me to know God. Personally. The way you know someone you've sat with in the dark. Not concepts about a Higher Power but actual contact — messy, uncertain, real.
I didn't know how to do that. So I started small. I talked to God in my car on the way to meetings. Not formal prayers — just honest, sometimes angry, conversations. I told Him I wasn't sure He was there. I told Him I was scared. I told Him what I needed even though I doubted anyone was listening.
Something shifted. Not dramatically. But over time, those car conversations started to feel less like talking to myself. I can't prove anything changed. I just know that showing up honest, day after day, built something that theology never could. Not certainty. Relationship.
Today I can talk to my Higher Power like a person, not a theology exam. In the car, on a walk, wherever I am — just say what's true and let that be enough.
