Discovering What I'm Not Powerless Over

For so long, I catalogued my powerlessness like an inventory of defeat. Powerless over the drinking. Powerless over the chaos. Powerless over others' choices. The list grew until it seemed I was powerless over everything. But I was looking at the question backwards.

The real discovery came through elimination. By identifying everything I was powerless over, I finally saw what remained – myself. I am not powerless over myself. This single exception changes everything. In a world where so much lies beyond my control, I have complete authority over my own thoughts, choices, and actions.

This wasn't the dramatic revelation I expected. I had been searching for some external power I could finally exert, some way to make things happen in the world around me. Instead, I discovered an internal sovereignty I'd been ignoring while I focused outward. My power lies in how I respond, what I choose, who I decide to be.

The paradox is beautiful: by fully accepting my powerlessness over others and their diseases, I claim complete power over myself. These aren't contradictory truths but complementary ones. My powerlessness over alcohol frees me to exercise power over my own recovery. What seemed like limitation was actually liberation.

Today I can exercise my power over myself by making one choice that serves my wellbeing, regardless of what's happening around me.